2019: Same sh*t, different year?

My social media is filled with roundup posts of 2018, with people sharing the good, the bad and everything in between about 2018. Those who have had a bad year can't wait to close the door on it and for some, it has been the best year of their lives. For me, it's just been another year. The year has been a good one to me, but other than getting engaged, nothing massive has happened. I am happy for those who have done amazing things this year, or who have achieved great things, I've seen so many of my followers having babies which are adorable. This year has been a lot of going to work, writing posts and attempting to go back out into the world as much as I can. I met one of my best pals, and I couldn't quite imagine facing 2019 without her. 

As cynical as it seems people always use January to make these changes, and most of us don't stick to them. I spend the first half of 2019 trying to remember when referring to the date that we are in 2019 and not 2018, as well as forgetting things are this year as opposed to next year and don't even get me started on the fact of when I am finally used to 2019, it's almost over. The pressure to start the new year as a new you is too much for me. I don't want to be a new me, maybe a slightly revised one at best. I pick small targets which I'd like to complete in 2019 but I don't want to feel bad about them if I fail them, because life is too short for making yourself feel guilty over a new years resolution. 

I admire those who set those resolutions on January 1st and manage to stick to them, all the power to you. For people like me, I find it hard to commit on January 1st to anything new. I find it cliche and I feel the pressure too much. Yes, I want to lose weight and go back to the gym, but am I f*ck doing it in January when everyone else will be doing the same, no thanks. I plan to cut down the number of takeaways I eat in a week (it's bad), but I know being the person I am, it's impossible for me to cut them out completely right away. Working towards cutting them down is an achievement in itself. I've done new years resolutions in the past many times and always end up beating myself up when I've failed them and that's not what I want to start the new year on. 

My 2019 goals are pretty much the same as every year, keep my head above water, go out and enjoy more things, possibly lose some weight and join the gym (at some point) and enjoy life as a 24-year-old would (It's my birthday in 13 days, woo). This year I have an additional 'goal' which is to start planning my wedding, I know in reality it is probably a long time away, but at the same time, I know nothing about weddings. Each day of the year I strive to make myself a better person, smile at people more and even learn new things and that won't change for as long as I can help it. 

The point of this post isn't to sh*t on those who are buzzing for the new year and have amazing plans, I promise. More for those like myself, who struggle with the idea of huge changes, or feeling like they haven't achieved anything huge in 2018, because that's ok too. This year, if I can give you any piece of advice is take it as it comes, I've spent far too many years trying to make things happen and forcing myself to do things I really didn't want to do. Live 2019 for you, and be kind! Happy New Year all.