I've had this post in my head for such a long time, it has just taken me a while to get my thoughts together to talk about this post on my blog. For me it is something that is real and effects my everyday life and I hope one day I can come to terms with it and not let it effect me the way it does at the moment, but for now I am going to do what I do best, and write a blog post about it.



So what is FOMO I hear you ask? 
Fomo is the 'fear of missing out' and at first I thought I was the only one who suffered with this, I would spend hours upon hours looking on social media and seeing people together and wondering why I hadn't been invited, I mean we are friends so why wasn't I asked? I felt pathetic and I often got really upset that they no longer liked me. It was when I started to spend more time inside because of my illness I realised it was getting worse, I would see everyone hanging out and taking pictures and would hate myself for not being able to be there. It got worse when I was finally able to hang out but I had missed out on SO much I ended up feeling 10 times worse as I wasn't included in the jokes and I had no idea about what everyone was talking about.

Is it just triggered by social media? 
Last year I realised it isn't just social media which triggers FOMO for me, I lived with 4 people and whenever they were downstairs having a laugh and a drink and I was upstairs I'd wonder what they were doing and why I wasn't invited downstairs. I'd often force myself out of bed and go downstairs to hang out with them so I didn't miss out anything. FOMO seems like such a casual thing, I mean how can somebody get so upset and lonely about not being invited to something right? But honestly it consumes your mind and makes you wonder why. With somebody who suffers a lot with anxiety and I am quite a paranoid person this tips me over the edge, I feel lonely when people are having a laugh and an inside joke. Recently I've noticed it is even worse than ever before, I feel like when I go on holiday instead of enjoying my holiday I am paranoid that everybody is meeting up without me and having a great time and they will forget about me.

How am I going to deal with my FOMO?  
Right now I am lucky because my friends actually suffer with FOMO a lot too, and are also quite confused when they aren't asked to hang out which helps knowing I am not alone with this. But it still consumes my life and makes me feel uncomfortable. I hope one day I am able to manage this in a more healthy way, but for now I am just going to have to keep going on how I am and hope for the best.

Do you suffer with FOMO?