Acne, is the one thing that has been consistent throughout my teens and now in my early 20's it is still bothering me the same way it ever was. It's not even just the fact that it looks awful on my face and all over my body, it's actually really painful on my face and is constantly leaving me with 100% confidence. I try to cover it up with makeup but it is often too painful to do so, leaving me feeling disheartened and down about my skin, I have tried so many pills and creams but it always ends up coming back. I am forever wishing I had the confidence to go out without makeup but my head tells me that people are staring at me and my acne makes them sick.

Yeah I said that I think some spots on my face make people sick, even though in reality they probably haven't even noticed them. During high school I had to deal with a lot of bullying because of my acne and I have never quite recovered from that, the names they used to call me still affect me today- equator face, ugly, your face makes me want to be sick, EW that's disgusting you should wear a bag on your head. Those things still come into my head when I am having a bad acne day, it's becoming a problem even now to cope with my image. I've tried so many different things, and none of them seem to work I am starting to accept the fact I'll never have good skin without some kind of intense treatment which sucks. Growing up you get told it'll get better, you'll grow out of it but that day never comes and you feel as disgusting as you ever did. I am sad because I know my face will always have the scars which acne caused and I'll never have the perfect face which I dream of, but I guess I'll get used to it one day, maybe not yet but one day I will.